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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy 2009!!!

 I got to work about 8:40 or so and opened my email to see my boss had called a 8:00 meeting- rats!  I sent a reply that I had been working on something and just read the email..OOPS. Although I have been complaining that the email is wacky since they moved my home drive from the server at headquarters to the worksite server (which I spec'd, authorized the order, and oversaw the installation of thank you...as part of a $236,000 infrastructure build I supervised

So I had to zoom back over to HQ, smooth ruffled feathers, and review a stupid multipage excel workbook naming all the business crtical systems we have...fun..As my office there is on the front of the building, basically over the enterway 4 floors below, I started noticing the flow of people out of the building at 2. I joined them at 3, to go back to the worksite, and in the elevator a guy started a conversation about New Year and all, and said he was glad the executives had decided to let people go home early and all....WHAT? Nobody told me.

The division I am working for, as their IT project person assigned from HQI T Division, I was a little disappointed that all the management at the division had decided to take a vacation day today and Friday...essentially leaving me as the highest "ranking" person at the facility I am working at. Yet I have no authority to tell people to go home, yet they all think I do...so I did. I said finsih up what you are doinng and go home; freinds and family are important..see you next year. It was a few minutes after that when it occurred to me that the security guard and I were the only ones still there, and he had to be...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Happy 2009!!!

I got to work about 8:40 or so and opened my email to see my boss had called a 8:00 meeting- rats! I sent a reply that I had been working on something and just read the email..OOPS. Although I have been complaining that the email is wacky since they moved my home drive from the server at headquarters to the worksite server (which I spec'd, authorized the order, and oversaw the installation of thank you...as part of a $236,000 infrastructure build I supervised

So I had to zoom back over to HQ, smooth ruffled feathers, and review a stupid multipage excel workbook naming all the business crtical systems we have...fun..As my office there is on the front of the building, basically over the enterway 4 floors below, I started noticing the flow of people out of the building at 2. I joined them at 3, to go back to the worksite, and in the elevator a guy started a conversation about New Year and all, and said he was glad the executives had decided to let people go home early and all....WHAT? Nobody told me.

The division I am working for, as their IT project person assigned from HQI T Division, I was a little disappointed that all the management at the division had decided to take a vacation day today and Friday...essentially leaving me as the highest "ranking" person at the facility I am working at. Yet I have no authority to tell people to go home, yet they all think I do...so I did. I said finsih up what you are doinng and go home; freinds and family are important..see you next year. It was a few minutes after that when it occurred to me that the security guard and I were the only ones still there, and he had to be...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Sunday, December 28, 2008

December 28, 2008

Christmas...once the gifts have been opened, the laughter and joy shared, the food eaten...then what?
We decided to go visit the daughter and her hubbie, who were going to go to Portland to see his parents the weekend before, only to have their flights canceled. She said they would have been stuck at the mid-way point for three days, waiting to go on...

The weather was a brisk 20 something the other morning when we left, and a balmy 52 near the ocean where they live, on the north part of the Monterey peninsula. They just moved to a more spacious two bedroom apartment, which honey estimates to be about 900 sq ft compared to the 477 sq ft they lived in. I still cant see how that small a space was renting for 1600 a month, especially since it had been built in the 1920's..and looked it.

Their new place (same rent, just bigger) is further away from the ocean, which doesnt bother them since they never go to the beach anyway.
We had a good time, and thankfully now they have a place big enough for us to stay over at, honey said we might come down to visit them more often. When we went ot see them before, it was so cramped we would rent a hotel room, usually for about $200 a night, so extended stays were a little expensive...and so they came to see us more.
I think from now to the new year I am not going to be so busy online, and catch up on some things...

Have a happy NEW YEAR, hope your Christmas was joyous!!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Entry for Christmas EVE, December 24, 2008

I am a determined person, usually. I was determined to have a great Christmas even if our daughter and husband had made some goofy determination to ALWAYS spend Christmas with his parents, and alternate Thanksgivings with us and them. So when the weather turned on them and forced them to stay home this year, I was glad they were traveling, but also was a little smug about the fact that they would not be able to keep their plans to never have Christmas with us again...
But then what is Christmas if not for being with family?
In talking to her the other day, I asked if she wanted us to come there for Christmas, and after we discussed the incoming storms, decided we would go visit them the day after Christmas and the weekend. Post Christmas in the mountains, overlooking the Pacific...
Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Entry for December 19, 2008

Couple of things...I went home early today, since there was not a lot going on, and when the evening rolled around, I was watching the news, and found out our Governor is proposing to layoff state employees, and require the ones still working to take a 10% pay cut. Many people I know think government workers all make too much money, so it would probably surprise them thaty where i have been working at a state facility many of the machine operators make about $16 a hour, while their private industry counterparts make around $22 an hour. Its a trade off for a stable job versus more money. Still, i dont think California is going to make a dent in their budget shortage by doing this...California is about $7 BILLION in debt right, so if state workers could balance that, it would mean each of them taking a 100% pay cut for about a year....good thinking Gov.

Merry Christmas

My daughter called to say it was really snowing the other morning at her house, overlooking Santa Cruz CA...about 3 miles from the ocean!

My brother is working a lot of overtime with his new job as plow maintenance supervisor in the mountains...I might give him some of those artic boots for Christmas.. It has been COLD here in our valley, high 20s at night, low 40s in the day...

Dec 19, 2008 10:15 am US/Pacific

Blowing Snow Making Sierra Travel Difficult

SACRAMENTO (CBS13/AP) ―
Crews repaired downed power lines, motorists cursed and skiers rejoiced Friday as another winter storm raced through the Sierra with more snow and strong winds, including one gust of 142 mph over a mountain ridge west of Lake Tahoe.

Interstate 80 over Donner Summit, a major artery into northern California, was closed for nearly six hours before reopening at 6:30 a.m., said Donna Jones, a California Department of Transportation supervisor in Kingvale, Calif.

"The blowing snow caused zero visibility. So for safety reasons we closed it," Jones said.

Chains were mandatory later Friday on all three highways linking the Sacramento, Calif., and Sierra areas: I-80 over Donner Summit, U.S. 50 over Echo Summit and Highway 88 over Carson Pass.
Winds in Reno gusted up to 79 mph early Friday, said Gina McGuire, a National Weather Service forecaster in Reno. To the south, she reported gusts of up to 162 mph on White Mountain Summit in Mono County, Calif., and up to 82 mph in Washoe Valley north of Carson City.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

EXTRA! One week to Christmas - December 18, 2008

I look forward to Christmas. I really do. I think because its the one time of the year people have an excuse to be nice to each other and giving of themselves. Why we need to have an excuse is beyond me.

Our lawn care guy is a retired guy with a beat up old pickup, and equipment that looks like he hobbled it together in his garage. Tonight he came by to collect his fee, and greeted honey "Merry Christmas"...honey went to get the checkbook, and wrote two checks and asked for a Christmas card, and quickly stuffed one of the checks inside> and then opened the door , went out the door to the porch, handing everything to our guy.

I could hear them: "Thanks for the card"

"You better look inside"

"Man, thats mighty nice of you. Better put that in my pocket before my wife sees it...she's int he truck"

Merry Christmas.

Scottish people do have some interesting customs and traditions. It is believed that if the fire goes out on Christmas Eve, the household will suffer bead luck in the coming year.

Mischievous elves climb down the chimney and cause troubles in the family. However, a raging fire can scare them away. On Christmas day, people lit big bonfires, play bagpipes and dance around the bonfire. Traditional oatmeal cakes known as Bannock are eaten on this day.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Entry for December 16, 2008

Sad to say that at quarter after 10 PM, I am not in bed sleeping, but thinking...and not about anything in the news, because I have consciously ignored the news as much as possible lately.

I think about work even when i am not there. I have a lot to think about. Dont get me wrong, I am not bragging about how self important I am, I was raised to eschew that sort of behavior. Maybe that's part of my problem- when i do get credit, i can't handle it. I was complaining this weekend about why is that when you find a job you seem to be good at, you hate it?? I have done this IT project stuff for nearly 10 years, so i guess i am bound to know a thing or two, and yet I hate it...the reports, the hassle of dealing with the contractor vendors, of keeping our own budget people from paying unapproved bills, and trying to convince management that spending a half million dollars now in a bad budget cycle makes sense... because the vendor is also in a down turn and is will to sell nearly a million dollars of hardware, software and services for half...

Today i had several vendor meetings, and finally met this woman I had talked to several times on the phone. I had imaged her a middle aged career woman, average build etc...I mean what do i know. I come back from lunch and there is the human Barbie doll, who smiles and says are you Canice? I acknowledge that and she tells me she is my appointment. Afterward, the managers I work with (all women) and I discuss what we are going to do to follow up, and I blurt out "and when the hell was anyone going to tell me we were meeting the human barbie doll??" Hilarious laughter, and then the commentary, which seemed warranted at the time...I swear she had the smallest waist I have ever seen, and we decided she had her clothes spray painted on, to match her black snakeskin 4 inch heels...and her chest was obviously man made, as evident by the looks form the men in the place...and worse, we think she uses botox, since her face was frozen the entire meeting, even though I (apparently) was staring at her mouth... how do you talk without any facial movement???

Now I am thinking about the meetings i have tomorrow, but Alas, honey and the dog are going to bed, and I should follow... and think about Christmas being only 9 more days

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Entry for December 14, 2008

Well, here I am watching for the umpteenth time Animal House, which always reminds me of my own college experience. Our campus had a fraternity that was kicked off campus, and had a house about a mile away. It was actually a old farm house, with several rooms upstairs which one time no doubt served as a wonderful family home, and now was the scene of almost nightly booze, dope, sex, loud music and other forms of debauchery common with collegians...

The night I remember a friend and i wandered to the place, having never been there, having asked the person who told us about the party how to find it; "Don't worry, once you're in the neighborhood you'll find it" We drove to the area, and found the sides of the road packed with cars, and after parking, started walking towards what sounded like a live performance by the Grateful Dead...some guys showed had up with these monstrous speakers, that they say came from a movie theater being dismantled... ah fun times.

But now I must start thinking about what to wear tomorrow to this friggin big all day meeting, that I have no idea why I am supposed to go to, other than the director's secretary sent me email invites several times...

I read the agenda, and it doesn't look too exciting...introduction remarks, blah blah, some big shot gives a speech, lunch and then more talking..fun...yeah, right.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Future of American Cars

If you are under 40, its doubtful you personally witnessed the demise of a car company. I have, back when i was learning to drive there were at least 6 auto makers: General Motors, Ford, Chrysler, American Motors, Studebaker, and Kaiser- Jeep.

One of the cars I learned to drive in was a Studebaker Hawk...Studebaker had one last fling in the auto world with the Avanti, which was pretty advanced for its day. Studebaker faded away in the mid 1960's, gone by 1967.

In 1970 Kaiser-Jeep was merged with American Motors, which continued to produce Jeeps and another division, which was named AM General (who would make military vehicles.)

American Motors Corporation(AMC) produced some really different cars to stay in business, like the Pacer (known to my friends as the Spacer) along with the Javelin and Rebel. AMC was bought up by Chrysler in 1987, and Jeep was merged into Chrysler.

And then there were the BIG Three.  Now they are in trouble, trying to stay alive with Federal (taxpayer) money. Senators from states with foreign owned car company plants are fighting it.

The TV talking heads are screaming (1) they had 30 years to figure it out(after the last big oil crisis) and (2) the unions are making them unprofitable.

I disagree. Things aren't usually as they seem, and this is no different.

For the last thirty years Americans have lapped up whatever creature comforts they felt like, including the need for big vehicles. American small cars don't sell as well ( in my opinion) not because they aren't built well, but generally I find them UNCOMFORTABLE. Making payments on a car you don't like is real annoying.

My honey is over 6 feet tall, and over 200 pounds- he absolutely hated his 1994 Toyota truck solely for one failure, comfort..and he had the same problem with our 1998 Chevrolet, because the ceiling was too low, and not enough leg room. Want to take more than one person with you, forget it. So we finally tried a SUV...ahhhh, headroom, leg room, passenger space.

Second point, the unions .

Business Week said "With ...Detroit Three slashing payrolls and moving retiree benefits off their books, Toyota's edge is disappearing.

Some of Toyota's U.S. plants are now more than 20 years old, and a growing number of its workers are paid the top wage of about $25 an hour. That's less than Detroit's veteran union hands make now, but a contract inked last fall will enable U.S. automakers to replace many highly paid employees with cheaper workers. By 2011, Toyota's cost advantage over Detroit could disappear. "The Japanese automakers have been here for almost 30 years," says Michael Robinet, an analyst at CSM Worldwide, a Northville (Mich.) research firm. "They'll start to have Big Three-like costs creeping in."

Toyota is worried. Two sources close to the company say that by late 2009, Toyota's 23-year-old assembly plant in Georgetown, Ky., where most workers are at the top of the pay scale, could have the highest labor costs of any auto factory in the U.S. Toyota says that with bonuses, some of its employees already make more than Detroit's unionized workers. "I think [the Detroit automakers] could easily equal us or even exceed us in terms of having lower labor costs," says Pete Gritton, human resources chief for Toyota in North America. "

COST-CUTTING

Detroit's recent four-year union deal lets automakers pay lower wages to people whose work doesn't actually involve making cars—maintenance staffers, those who sort materials, cleaning crews, and the like. These new workers will make $14 an hour including benefits, compared with $42 an hour for employees who put the cars together, says Sean McAlinden, chief economist at the Center for Automotive Research in Ann Arbor, Mich.

The savings add up. General Motors (GM), for instance, has 74,500 workers. By 2011 GM will have about 68,000, and up to one-third of them will be earning the lower wage, predicts McAlinden. If GM can get all the buyouts it needs and hire cheaper labor to replace them, the company could cut its wage bill by $2.7 billion annually by 2011, he says. That adds up to $841 a car, or about half of the current cost differential with Toyota. A retiree health-care deal, which will give the United Auto Workers union $36 billion in exchange for taking over medical insurance, should save GM an additional $699 a car. That would turn Toyota's labor cost advantage over GM of $1,394 per car to a $108 disadvantage by 2011, McAlinden says.

Since Toyota has started building more plants in the US/Mexico border region, that may be an avenue they pursue more of as their US plants become uncompetitive. They currently build Tacoma pickups both in Tijuana and Fremont California, a factory shared with ...GM.

"NUMMI manufactures the Corolla and Tacoma for Toyota, and the Pontiac Vibe for General Motors"

We Americans need to get over the idea that things can be righted overnight.

 My opinion is that the car companies need to look at making some serious structural change, given hat their market share is going to continue to dwindle. Does it make sense for GM to be so big? Or should they pare down to the divisions making the most money, or at least eliminate duplication? Chrysler needs to revisit their whole idea of being owned by a investment group. Fact is I suspect Chrysler and Dodge will disappear, and Jeep will either be bought by someone (Renault is said to be interested as is GM), or go the way of Harley Davidson, employee ownership. Ford is ..well Ford, Ford cars and trucks, and Lincoln-Mercury.

No easy solutions, and all will involve work. But I think we should try. We cant all work at Starbucks.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Entry for December 12, 2008

I have been real busy at work, and attending a project managers conference the last two days, so I have not really caught a lot of news lately...I do that because I just want to be totally undistracted when relaxing, which can be squeezed between dinner and bedtime...so today when i got home at a surprisingly early 4:15PM, I flipped on the TV, and caught this on the news crawl on the bottom of the screen

"...sheriff's investigator in the case thinks the remains are Caylee's."

My heart sunk, and then I sat in my big chair and started to cry.

Knowing the stress I have from consenting the vet put my beloved dog down last year, I can NOT fathom how a person, let alone the PARENT, kill their own sweet 2 year old child? I looked at the picture of my daughter and her husband i took on Thanksgiving, and wondered how someone could live with themself in terminating a childs life and right to grow up...I just cant imagine it..

We will never know the potential this child held...which diminishes us all.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Entry for December 07, 2008

67 years go the United States was attacked by Japan...(it seems odd that the occurrence was a Sunday and this anniversary is as well.)

Well before I was born, my grandfather and family were newly arrived in California, seeking work. He was a master carpenter, learning his trade in various places around the west. He managed to land a job at the US Naval Ship Yard at Mare Island, adjacent to Vallejo CA.

While grandmother prepared some food following returning home from church, he turned on his radio, and heard the news of the attack. My grandmother told me once that the next day an anti aircraft gun was set up behind their house, and fear was everywhere that some mystery planes would fly over the bay and bomb the shipyard, which had begun to specialize in building and servicing submarines.

SO, today I will not rant and rave, and realize how arrogant our society as become (where the word sacrifice applies to someone else, but certainly not ME?) and generally will try to reflect on the lessons I learned about the world listening to my grandparents when they were alive..

Self reliance, thrift, simplicity. I thought that's what everyone knew..until I grew up.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Entry for December 06, 2008

There have been many instances of the use of the military within the borders of the United States, such as during the Whiskey Rebellion and in the South during the civil rights crises, but these acts are not tantamount to a declaration of martial law. The distinction must be made as clear as that between martial law and military justice: deployment of troops does not necessarily mean that the civil courts cannot function, and that is one of the keys, as the Supreme Court noted, to martial law.

Of late there has been scattered media reports that the US military is preparing to impose martial law, should things get out of hand due to our current economy. I thought this was a bit off the mark, but then I remembered about a decade ago when our town was part of an "exercise" which saw USMC troop and gunship helicopters flying very low and fast all over town, picking up and dropping off Marines. Apparently this happened across the country with Army and Marine units. Now I find out the units selected for the "Consequences Management Operations have all had combat tours of duty in urban areas of Iraq and mountain regions of Afghanistan. Maybe I better re watch that movie "The Siege"....

I know many people find comfort in the nanny state we have become, especially here in the west. I dont. My family were pioneers, and self reliance was critical to survival. But given the dismal state of the economy, and the continued lowering of our expectations of each other, it probably wont be long until places like Montana actually do suceed from the US.

Maybe the Russian economist that predicts the dissolution of the USA isnt too far off the mark after all. I hope not though.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Who me? Panic? Why? December 5, 2008

I have thought about this on and off for months.

I am interested in national politics for sure, but I also like to study up on military stuff, having grown up in the vicinity of three military bases (McClellan and Mather AFB, and the Sacramento Army Depot), and being exposed to the Marine Corp Gazette on a monthly basis in childhood by my dad, a Korean War Marine Officer, who later became a police detective.

As the eldest child, I was the one expected to carry on the family traditions until my brothers were born, but as we grew up dad realized they weren't going to follow his lead in college and professional life, so I was under a lot of pressure to " show your brothers what hard work can do"...I graduated high school early (in spite of my introduction to alcohol and recreational drugs) graduated junior college early (in spite of alcohol and recreational drugs) and went on to university...Oh,  and got booted out because I had gone from a sweet girl to hippie slut in my dad's opinion.  But I discussed this all already in another blog...

So after college, I needed a job, and ended up working for DoD as a grade school teacher in Germany, where I dated (code for slept with) a Army officer working in Military Intelligence. I later married him, and following our return to the USA, divorced his cheating ass... again, another blog somewhere in this 360..

So anyways, I am not totally out of the loop on military stuff (honey is a VietNam vet, was a NCO and got a battlefield commission- he says like the movies, someone gets killed, somebody gets promoted...) So we get a lot of Army stuff in the mail, and after 9/11 he renewed his membership in some things like the Officer Reserve Association (?) and American Legion..who both have publications we get.  These peak my interest sometimes, like when I read some of the thinking in the Army today from some newsletter he gets.

And then there is some of the stuff I hear on the radio, from various (mostly conservative) talk shows.. So I was thinking about this today again after this morning's entry...what if like a bad episode of 24, nasty people smuggled a nuclear weapon into the USA? What if they had a small bomb that a couple of guys could carry and walked across the desert top a giant nuclear plant in the desert, and screamed out whatever they yell before vaporizing, and KABLOOEY, vaporized themselves and everything else in a 500 meter radius.  Honey says this is entirely possible, because he worked with "Special Weapons" in the Army in the mid 70's, and remembers something designed for a few guys to setup and then remotely detonate...so we goggled it and found this… (Note how the military always names stuff like, “Uniform, Battle Dress”)

Weapon

Type

Weight

Damage

Tactical Nuclear Device, Portable

Nuclear

3 kg Detonator, 22 kg Device

Crater 100 m, Fireball 500 m, Total Destruction 470 m, Heavy Destruction 680 m, Medium Destruction 1042 m, Light Destruction 1303 m, Radiation Cloud 1500 m; Initial Rads 6000, Half-Life 6 h

Tactical Nuclear Device, Portable

A standard nuclear weapon, suitable for use by Special Forces or atomic demolition munitions personnel, packaged in a standard nylon backpack.

22 KG is not very heavy…OK, so lets suppose this happens, I mean people are writing books about this all the time lately..

Would the local police and FEMA be able to deal with it?? Seriously, thousands of potential casualties, and probably anarchy, as one of my films says “…there will be panic, chaos in the streets. There will be looting and killing…”

I mean in my mind it would make Katrina look like a picnic…so therefore I believe that this must be part of the mission of the Northern Command, which explains the composition of their Reaction Force, who is heavily tilted to combat troops and a specialized medical brigade..

Now combine these ideas with Biden’s ominous “…Because it's not going to be apparent initially; it's not going to be apparent that we're right.

Right about what Joe?  Imposing martial law? Suspending the Bill of Rights?

 

I am like you, scared and wanting to have some idea what’s happening..we’re in this together, aren’t we?

Another Entry for December 05, 2008

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December 05, 2008

I must apologize for my tantrum yesterday..but the economic news is of late so dismal...

And then there is our national security situation...

The Washington Post recently reported the Pentagon plans to have up 20,000 U.S. troops placed in domestic locations with the charge of responding to security matters.

Some of those troops -- which are under the U.S. Northern Command -- are already active in Arizona, helping with security efforts along the Mexican border. ( you mean the engineers building the fence??? But we were told those were National Guard.)

The Colorado Springs, Colo.-based Northern Command was created after 9/11 and is geared towards homeland security and civil defense within the U.S.

I want to know more abpout the Northern Command..."The mission of USNORTHCOM is homeland defense and civil support. The command conducts operations to deter, prevent, defeat and mitigate threats and aggression aimed at the United States, its territories and interests within the assigned area of responsibility. Also, as directed by the President or Secretary of Defense, USNORTHCOM provides military assistance to civil authorities including consequence management operations"

i was ok with this until the phrase "military assistance to civil authorities including consequence management operations. Having worked for DoD early in my work life, I know words are selected very carefully, especially in any publication that may go public.

In September of this year, GlobalSecurity.Org wrote"

Consequence Management Response Force to join Army Northern Command

Elements of the force, known as the ... Consequence Management Response Force, or CCMRF, assembled at Fort Stewart, Ga., Sept. 8-19 for a command post exercise ...Three brigades form the core of the force: the 1st Brigade Combat Team, 3rd Infantry Division, Fort Stewart; the 1st Medical Brigade, Fort Hood, Texas; and the 82nd Combat Aviation Brigade, Fort Bragg, N.C.

The response force will be assigned on Oct. 1 to U.S. Northern Command, Peterson Air Force Base, Colo., and placed under the operational control of U.S. Army North, Fort Sam Houston, Texas.

I know what an Infantry Brigade is, since honey served in the 3rd Infantry Division. And the Medical brigade could provide immediate medical care for hundres of people should it be required...but the 82nd Combat Aviation Brigade, I am not sure...its the word Combat that puzzles me. I mean if you were supporting civil authority in an emergency, there are lots of units that fly helicopters and could do that job, so why a aviation unit from the 82nd Airborne, a paratroop division..I mean the 101st is the Air Mobile Division... Want to really get the willies, read their mission statement:

Mission

On order, 82nd Combat Aviation Brigade deploys worldwide to find, fix and destroy enemy forces using aerial fire and maneuver to concentrate and sustain combat power

Thats all good in war, but here in the USA??

Something else is going on here...this seems more aimed at instituting martial law and enforcement while prosecuting combat operations on American soil...

Thursday, December 4, 2008

entry for December 04, 2008

I have a 360 friend who recently wrote:

"I believe in people. I believe is life. I even still believe in God. I don't really know why.

I don't believe in religion. It's as corrupt as a politician under oath and as deviate as a porn star at Pentecost.

I do believe that there's an energy out there somewhere. I believe that there's an energy that inspires us to love, to dream, to hope, to think, to breathe... and that is what I call God."

Thats all good, essentially we are of the same mindset so far... But then "I don't support the troops. There I said it."

Wow...I am not offended or hurt, even though I have a cousin who did two tours in Iraq and is now on his second deployment to Afghanistan. This is America after all, and people can say what they want, at least within the limits of the law- you know, unless they slander someone or yell fire in a crowd when there isnt one. I totally get being against war, really I do. I have another cousin who is basically non-functional member of society because of his experience in Viet Nam, and honey and my brother in law both served during that period, and just dont want to talk about it. War is hell is an understatement. So I am guessing that not supporting the troops makes a similar statement, one I can not necessarily endorse. There I said it....whatever I said. (Its a gift and curse to be so scatter brained)

So why am I pissed off? Because I think that as a nation, we take too much for granted. I think too many people put too much energy into seeking things and not trying to understand things. I am no different. I have been home all this week, and realizew\ I have been working hard to earn money to pay for daily expenses, our daughters education, our retirement, and along the way have bought way too much stuff, meaning I need a bigger house to hold it all, and for what?? My 457/401K has shrunk 64%...thats right, I said SIXTY FOUR % How do you think that sits with me? Our home we worked so hard to pay off quickly, now owing only 10 years worth of payments, is friggin down in value to where it was almost 11 years ago. Let me explain it different- it is worth 50% what it was 2 years ago!!!! People say get over it...I say F__K YOU, you get over it. Get over having to rearrange your life plan because corporate assholes were busy taking private jets to spa vacations while the company they ran floundered. Get over having our government being just as screwed up, both parties. ( Im going to rant now)

Get over having women candidates vilified in both election campaigns...Get over visions of Bush on a carrier saying major combat is over, then enduring years of protracted conflict which has cost thousands of lives, only for him to only recently admit his decisions were based on faulty intelligence ( his???) Get over what exactly...

I need a drink...or a vat of soon to be worthless money.

Thanks for reading this...if you disagree or agree, well, we're in this together aren't we?

Monday, December 1, 2008

Sunrise in the fog - December 01, 2008

The picture today i call sunrise in the fog, which hey is waht it is...but its also a metaphor for how i feel today.

Some of you may have read enough of my blog here to know i have issues, duh! I go on political rants a lot lately, and don't discuss my personal life too much any more.

I think I should, if for no other reason than maybe me carping about my issues would inspire someone to do something for themselves. I say that because over the Thanksgiving holiday my daughter and her husband visited, going home Saturday. We went to do somethings Saturday morning, venturing out to the local farmers market, swap meet/auction, where I managed to get Egyptian made rug for $45...I often wonder if these are stolen or what?? The quality is OK, but whatever, this is off topic.

So at lunch after shopping, I asked my SIL (son-in-law) why at dinner the other night he says "I am really proud of the way you are taking care of yourself". (A remark that cause me and my daughter to exchange shrugs).

He explained to me that his best man at their wedding (who probably is in his mid 30's) found out he has an enlarged heart and some other medical conditions, and has steadfastly refused to follow the treatments the doctors have told him...take his medications and avoid things like fatty foods, and alcohol. SIL says he knows i used to love wine and some beers, and he hadn't seen me drink anything all weekend, and so my daughter had told him that since I was put on some different medications for my diabetes, I just decided to stop drinking any alcohol at all, with rare exceptions.

here's the thing.

I am really selfish- I have worked hard to get to where i am so that honey and i can retire someday and not have to worry about things like, OH, affording to eat, pay our own way, little things like that. And I would like to someday be able to just go to the beach whenever i want, not just on vacation or weekends. So i do what the doctors say so i can do those things.

I told SIL to tell his friend he is an idiot, and needs some mental help. I was really depressed when i was diagnosed with Type II diabetes, but I thought about what the alternatives were to not taking my meds, and decided i was selfish, and wanted to be around awhile. For me, my family and our friends.

I have managed my diabetes for the last 12 years, so i guess I am doing something OK. My latest thing to deal with has been thyroid problems, leading to the decision with my specialist doctor to take a dose of radioactive Iodine today to shrink the thyroid.

I guess for the next week I will be somewhat dangerous to others, as I wander around throwing out Beta rays. Worse part will be sleeping alone for a week, until the level of radiation in me is no longer a danger to others. So when i got home for the doctor, I decided to see why my of late normally tight jeans felt OK, it not actually a little loose. I still weigh more than I want, but I am darn close to wearing a smaller size. I don't usually talk too much about this, but having come down 2 sizes already in the last 3 years only to go back up a size was devastating to my ego...and now i am going down again. Loss of weight does a couple of things ( beside make me feel happy I mean)...it lowers my blood pressure, and it helps me control my diabetes. Yay!

And another thing....

One thing that puzzled me was I should be losing weight since my thyroid is overactive, yet instead I gained weight...until a co-worker mentioned that I should look at the amount i was eating, which made me realize i was loading up on food. The doctor said that its not uncommon, since your appetite also gets put in overdrive, to offset the high metabolism. For the last couple of weeks I have tried to eat about what I should volume wise, and sorta stay on track with carb control, which is damn hard when there are all these pies and sweets being served up for the holidays.

I guess I should stop for now, else i really start to sound like my mother, who calls every week to tell me about her medical issues

Sunday, November 30, 2008

November 29, 2008

I get several complaints when I threaten to leave 360, from loyal readers who have grown accustomed to my...warped perspective?

Economy

In September i wrote about talking with honey and deciding to move at least some of the IRA money from stocks to money market...and then within weeks looking like I was amazingly smart. (If I had been smart I wouldn't now be planning to work several more years to recover). If I was so smart, i would have concluded like many economists have that the current US mortgages secured by our quasi-government financial market is in the neighborhood of $10 trillion (10 thousand billion) and the estimated market value of those is $1-2 trillion...OOPS! So meanwhile people like me have seen their house value quadruple in the last decade, and then come tumbling down, to something like 20% over what we paid in 1997...gee, where did all that money go?

National Security

And pretty much the economy has ruled our lives, until the day before Thanksgiving when a bunch of assholes decided to start a terrorist fun fest in India by killing innocent men women and children. Watching the news, I saw what appeared to me to be rather poorly trained police, no doubt terrified themselves, trying to figure out what to do. I actually remember seeing the news the next day when some serious looking men in uniform marched past the cameras, and thought"they seem to know what they are doing". Having been around the military and/or police much of my adult life, you can see in how people carry themselves whether they have confidence and an air of knowing what they are doing, a sense of professionalism I guess. At any rate, it seems the terrorists have been killed, arrested, or got away (my bet)...how is it that Friday the media reported Indian Security services were fairly certain there had been between 20-25 attackers involved, and today it a confirmed there were only 10??? 10 sites attacked by 10 guys??? and 6 were killed in one hotel??

And according to former General Colin Powell and Vice President Biden we will have a generated international crisis between January 20 2009 and the six month mark to test the new administration...spoken with such confidence that its no wonder many of my friends are spooked...

Friday, November 28, 2008

Leftovers Friday November 28, 2008

My brother sent me this list, which i tried to post on the non-functioning Yippe 180 blog I have had for several years...and which has refused to accept any entries since 11/22.  So the heck with that site, i will focus on this one being my major outlet.

The list he sent me he did because 1) he thought it was funny and 2) he is always trying to jab me with things that are likely to evoke some response..and he knows I think this sort of thing is idiotic. Hence I publish it, because it is stupid, and after some reflection, I realize some men are pretty clueless about women, just as I am about why men persist in thinking women are from another planet or something...I really get frustrated by a guy at my job who is patronizing to women, even those like me who are in position, salary and responsibilities their peers. But then that's another blog in a series I started about a year ago scattered around the web ....

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE 
1.  Fine:

This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. 
2.  Five Minutes:

If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. 
3.  Nothing:

This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. 
4.  Go Ahead:

This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! 
5.  Loud Sigh:

This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
6.  That's Okay:

This is one of the most dangerous statements women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake. 
7.  Thanks:

A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' .. that will bring on a 'whatever'). 
8.  Whatever:

Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU! 
9.  Don't worry about it, I got it:

Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

 

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Conspiracy Theory 2008

OK, here is the theory:

Hoover left office and the country was in a financial mess, as was much of Europe. Roosevelt came to power, and tried a lot of ideas to fix things, but the economic failure know as the Depression ended about 1942, after the USA had joined the fight in World War II.

Now we have a administration that has pretty much blown it leaving office and a democrat coming into office in a similar situation. Add to this now what I call the Biden factor.

"Mark my words...watch, we're gonna have an international crisis, a generated crisis, to test the mettle of this guy. There are gonna be a lot of you who want to go, 'Whoa, wait a minute, yo, whoa, whoa, I don't know about that decision. Because if you think the decision is sound when they're made, which I believe you will when they're made, they're not likely to be as popular as they are sound. Because if they're popular, they're probably not sound."

We know the new admin wants to redeploy our troops from Iraq to Afghanistan. Based upon the Biden factor, the new theory is that we will escalate the fight in that country "to get bin Laden" and well...respond to a crisis? Remember :

  • Pakistan exploded their own nuclear bomb.
  • Pakistan has tactical missiles that can carry a nuclear bomb
  • Pakistan is our ally?

Now go think about this and come back with the theory...

Entry for November 22, 2008

When I was 10 years old, JFK was shot on this day, November 22. That was 45 years ago, so anyone not about my age or so probably doesn't have much (if any memory) of JFK, other than documentaries.

I thought he talked funny, saying words in his distinctive Cape Cod accent- Cu-ber for Cuba, and so forth. I remember the civil defense drills we did in school the previous year, now a time more colorfully known as the Missiles of October...a time where we all were so close to obliteration even people like my dad were scared.

10 years later, I was strolling through Arlington, and came to the site where he is buried, with the eternal flame.

Much to my horror, a man put his child over the rope surrounding the sight, extolling the child to go sit next to the headstone, for a photo. I erupted in a fit of not yelling, but commentary that embarassed the man, and likely everyone around me, as I told the guy what I thought ogf his utter ignorance and lack of civility in putting a child on the grave site of a fallen national leader, and in general being a, well, major asshole...which caused the guy i was with to be a little embarassed, but he did join in and asked to guy to get his kid out of there.

When I lived in Germany, I was surprised at how loved Kennedy had been by the Germans, in particular in Berlin where he had uttered the "Iche bin ein Berliner" line. The story goes that he should have said "Ich bin Berliner" ("I am a citizen of Berlin"), and that "Ich bin ein Berliner" really means "I am a jelly doughnut." (A "Berliner" is in fact a type of jelly doughnut made in Berlin.) One of my German instructors even claimed this is true, and I once saw it published in a major American magazine, although I forget which one.

I found myself having drinks with a German , so I asked her the question. She said that it is certainly not true. President Kennedy said the phrase absolutely correctly, although possibly with a thick American accent. It seems that the German language is simply not that trivial — it has subtleties that very few non-native speakers grasp. She said that if President Kennedy had said "Ich bin Berliner," he would have sounded silly because with his heavy accent he couldn't possibly have come from Berlin. But by saying "Ich bin ein Berliner," he actually said "I am one with the people of Berlin." This is her exact translation as best I can remember it.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Veterans Days Past

My honey is a veteran. I have noticed each year he seems to get more solemn, more than before. Not all the time mind you, just on days like Veterans Day, Memorial Day and 9/11.

This year he spent the morning of Nov 11 in his office at home, playing this Jimi Hendrix song pretty much over and over. I went in to check on him, and he was looking at a picture of him and the guys in "the war". He is standing there in the picture, while his guys are sitting on the ramps of two personnel carriers (which look like tanks to me) . I asked him whats that music, and he points at another picture of him and a guy with a radio on his back behind a wall and a broken down car with holes all over it, and says "Roger here, he used to play that song all the damn time in the field, on his cassette player."

When our son-in-law ever asks, honey says he didn't do anything, yet I know thats not true. Surely all those ribbons and medals he keeps in a draw mean something. My brother, who is slightly older than honey, looked at son-in-law and said about honey "He was in the shit, and doesnt want to talk about it...let it be" Honey and my brother, also a vet, have talked about it, so I guess they shared something. 

Sometimes things dont change - November 19, 2008

Everyday People - Sly & The Family Stone

This song, Everyday People, was released by Sly and the Family Stone in 1968 and 40 years later still makes a point...

Sunday, November 16, 2008

New World Order can suck on this....November 16, 2008

This is another in a series of the “Howard Beale Collection” (see movie Network)

I don't have to tell you things are bad. Everybody knows things are bad. It's a depression. Everybody's out of work or scared of losing their job. The dollar buys a nickel's work, banks are going bust, shopkeepers keep a gun under the counter. Punks are running wild in the street and there's nobody anywhere who seems to know what to do...

This is not a psychotic breakdown; it's a cleansing moment of clarity.

Howard Beale 1976

Rant Section 1 –

In my imagination, Thomas Jefferson and James Madison would be aghast at what the Democratic Party has evolved to be. Jefferson wrote in the 1820's about the consolidation of too much power within the federal government, when he thought most power should remain with the states

“ I scarcely know myself which is most to be deprecated, a consolidation, or dissolution of the states. The horrors of both are beyond the reach of human foresight."

And somewhere between then and now the idea that responsibility for success or failure in business could and SHOULD be influenced by the federal government came to supplant the idea that business fails when it does not meet the market standard, is no longer competitive and a myriad of other factors.

Businesses “too large to fail” ….well, in my profession (IT) that would be considered a single point of failure, which is why as business systems get bigger they need to have failover, not be depending on one source of data which is the lifeblood of a data system. So if the lack of regulation led to businesses being allowed to conglomerate to the point that a failure brings down the entire economy, who should be responsible? Imagine if in the internet services available ONLY AOL was the provider, or MSN or any of several. They control it, and when their service becomes unprofitable, they keep hiking the rates. And their employees keep getting better and better contracts as the rates keep going up; then one day a satellite company comes along, and says they can do it better and cheaper. People try it out and find indeed the service gets them online, is reliable (since there are no telephone/dsl/cable cross country networks). And to top it all off, the new company pays their employees half what the “land based internet” people make, which allows them to continue providing the service cheaper. So the ailing company does what? Cut costs and realign to the new model, or ask for a Federal bailout? Get the picture???

Rant Section 2

United States of America

We should endeavor to move in the direction of the red white and blue, not red versus blue in this country.

As a family we can squabble and disagree, but there should be some common ground in all saying we are first and foremost citizens of the United States of America. As someone who has seen the reality of living in a country not endowed with our freedoms, I honestly can say that I cherish living in this country, as screwed up as it is at times. This country is not perfect, and likely will never be so. That was the point to begin with, that a people with many different views could live as a nation under the single set of rules we call the constitution.

Rant Section 3

Constitution

I recently saw an interview with Justice Scalia, a man I have held in both hi and lo regard for some of his judicial actions. But on the point of the constitution, I tend to agree, the creators of that document, in particular Jefferson, thought the country should hold a strict construction of the Constitution, and stronger states with a weaker federal government.

And that’s the way I see it. If you don’t agree, hey, that’s your right.

Friday, November 14, 2008

another vacation...November 14, 2008

Today found me spending the lunch hour at my health plan hospital/clinic waiting in a large waiting room for an ultrasound. As I sat quietly in the chair against the windows, I could see the 3 reception stations, and the hallway leading to mammography, nuclear medicine , radiology and Ultrasound. Mostly older people(older than me anyway) waiting, some speaking softly, others speaking not so softly in an asian language, while Martha Stewart chirped away on the Tv set hanging from the far corner of the room about some stupid (and revolting looking ) cranberry conconction she prepared, oh so effortlessly. I smirked to myself as I thought "I bet she had a lot of time to write recipes in federal prison...I know its mean, but what the heck, its probably true.

Eventually a young blond woman in the customary white smock appeared from the hallway, "Canice MacThomas?" as she looked at the 30 or so faces in the room. I usually like the sound of my name, but she looked starled when I stood up and said "Yup, here I am"

We wondered down several hallways, and then went into the dimmly lit room with one of those exam tables with a sheet of paper stretch the length, where she has me lay down . I stared at the ceiling, my thoughts desperately focused on not freaking out . Its difficult lying there motionless, your mind pondering all the dismal possibilities, regardless of the assurance or lack of evidence that my thyroid malfunction is anything but a benign nuisance in the aging process. I know it is, the doctor said it probably is, I hope it is, what if it isnt, well we'll just fight then...crap, I am making myself cry...The technician was very pleasant, though I think her and I said like 3 sentence the whole time. A sense of relief came over me when she wiped the jell from me, and handed me a clean towel, to finsh removing any she missed. I was allowed to gather my things, and then we jauntily walked down the hall, where she said, the result will go to your doctor, and you should know within a week or so.

Then I went to get a blood draw...what a way to start the weekend.

Later I checked my email and the tests my regular doctor ordered are all within the normal range, but the ones the specialist ordered weren't in yet...yes my health plan posts your medical records to their website, accessible by your login id. Dont get me going about what i think. I mean I like that I can do stuff online, but i sure hope they have decent security in place..

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Entry for November 11, 2008

Another one of my incoherent rants- bear with me, it makes sense sort of.

Politically, I think I have become a cynic. Living in California most of my life (I was born here), I was introduced to Democratic politics by my family – my grandfather was carpenter and worked building ships at Mare Island during WWII, my dad and uncle are both Korean War vets, and our family’s patriotism has never been questioned.

In college I joined the Young Democrats, and realizing their candidate was not going to end the war in Viet Nam, I joined others in forming a splinter group, the Young Democrats of Northern California. Our candidate was a Senator who called the war immoral, and vowed to end it.

Now the country is in two wars, one in Afghanistan and the other in Iraq, and this was a factor in decision making for whom to vote.

Yet this year as I talked with people about the election, it became apparent to me that my party has gone in a direction I am uncomfortable with. I didn’t vote for Hillary, although she was my second choice. California democrats overwhelmingly voted for her, and many pundits said her victory here assured her the nomination. Then when the nomination seemed within her grasp, something called super delegates announced Obama was their choice and in a instant the nomination process was over. OK, so be it, even though I think it sucks.

I am a cynic because many of the people I know at work and have seen on TV reports (MSNBC, NBC, ABC, CSPAN, CNN, and FOX) have fallen in love with the candidate that won, Obama. While he has been described as encouraging a cult of personality, Obama has successfully tapped into the deep hatred that has been fermented by politicians seeking to divide this country not into Democrats or Republicans, young or old, white or non-white, but increasingly a nation of haves and have not’s- not enough money, not enough credit, not enough health care, not enough equity in the society as a whole.

I am cynical because his promises to resolve our issues sound so good, they will likely be unattainable while politicians continue to debate what to do while the country continues business as usual. Pumping TRILLIONS of dollars into the problems seems their answer, yet the financial resources to do that come from not our own treasury but the lending from our economic competition, primarily China. I cynically think that GM will be saved when it’s announced China has acquired a majority interest in GM stock, now at a 62 year low.

I hope I am wrong. I hope someday our representatives can get on to the business of serving the interests of the people, not pandering to the lobbies that infuse campaigns with billions of dollars in search of favors post election. Personality can persuade so far. Pragmatic discipline governs effectively.

As a nation we face international challenges not only in defense, but in economics. In my work implementing digital age systems into processes that are based on last century practices, I have become increasingly concerned that the majority of products I have seen deployed are either in whole or part manufactured not in the USA, or even North America, but overseas, usually in countries where the labor standards are abysmal. Yet we as a consumer nation continue to believe in unbridled capitalism, ironically making purchases from countries with nationalized economies working daily to undermine the US politically. We need change, to become more competitive in these arena’s, and government can do that by encouraging companies to work smarter, leaner, and realizing that when America does better, they will too.

I for one try (as difficult as it is) to buy American made products when possible- because I would rather my money go to support a company that is paying Americans to build and sell to Americans, rather than not. I know the arguments- about how buying from overseas helps our economy by shifting the low wage jobs to there and leaving the higher wage jobs here…and I personally think that’s BS. Because it’s the lower wage jobs making something that enables people here to buy things…case in point I can buy a pair of New Balance shoes that say Made in USA for $75, or a pair of competitor shoes made in China for …$75 dollars. One pair has lasted so far 6 years, while the other fell apart after 18 months. So on a return for investment basis, the 6 year pair was the better deal…I know people that buy a Japanese car like a Lexus and would never buy a Cadillac, even though three years in a row consumer rating organization say the Cadillac is a better built vehicle…oh but that’s another rant for another day.

Last observation I want to share…

How is it that “We Support the Troops” has become a national obsession, with bumper stickers and the like, yet the major media outlets (New York Times, Washington Post, etc) have either NO or small items in today’s papers about it being Veterans Day?

From a college newspaper:

“What about the people who are still alive and are permanently changed because of what they witnessed in war? Do we forget about them and let them live lives like they have done nothing for our country? So you disagree with the War in Iraq, I understand that but to completely refuse a national holiday that has so much power over people is ridiculous. If it wasn't for the men and women who serve to protect this country, we would not be the United States of America and we would not have the freedoms we have today.”

And I am cynical?

Monday, November 10, 2008

Veterans Day, 2008

Dallas Morning News

Veterans Day. When you think of – or thank – veterans of the current Middle East war, think of this: U.S. soldiers are fighting in Iraq today in part because of an event that ended on this date 90 years ago: World War I.

It is well known how the tumult of the Great War lit the fire under Nazism and communism, the twin totalitarianisms that would grieve the 20th century. But the Great War's culmination also meant the demise of the Ottoman Empire and the drawing of the modern Middle East's map by the victorious British. Iraq and many of its regional neighbors emerged from that war. The Arab nationalism and Islamism that have convulsed the Middle East over the last century were a response to the waning of Western imperialism forced by the same war.

Interesting, i had not really connected Veterans Day WWI with Iraq.

What I do know is honey commemorated Veterans Day in silence from 1974 until 2002. He got out of the Marines in 1973, and resumed college in Feb 1974, only discussing his service with his dad, a Korean War vet, and other veterans on campus.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Entry for November 08, 2008

Honey and I both adore being at the ocean, and so our vacations have usually been to travel along the coast from San Francisco north. Weather has never been a great concern, although the further north we travel, sometimes the rain is so intense you have to stop and let it pass.

We decided to go to Seattle, and stopped in Gold Beach Oregon on the way up to spend the night in a vacation rental home. It was great, as big as our own home only with 2 bedrooms…but the living room was huge, and the kitchen was gigantic compared to ours…I loved this place!

Continuing north, we arrived at our destination, and unpacked for the week stay. This was a condo, tucked away in a corner of the woods only a block or so from I-5, but you would never know it. The kitchen was designed out of the IKEA catalog, and everything was stuck on one wall. A Mini-fridge, a mini stove, the microwave mounted under the cabinets. The adjacent table could seat 4, but they would have to serve the food then eat, because there was barely room for the two of us our first meal.

We were tired and honey suggested we go out, so I went online to see what was close by. Meanwhile honey spotted one of those “we recommend” leaflets that inns typically have, and said let try this place, Kells Irish Restaurant & Pub.

What a choice!. It turns out the place frequently has shows, and so we were treated to be entertained after eating by someone I had not heard of, Liam Gallagher, of the band Oasis. Expectation was (since we were in Seattle) this might be some grunge type music, but we were pleasantly surprised.

It was a memorable evening

Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy Samhain - October 31, 2008

Samhain marks one of the two great doorways of the Celtic year, for the Celts divided the year into two seasons: the light and the dark, at Beltane on May 1st and Samhain on November 1st. Some believe that Samhain was the more important festival, marking the beginning of a whole new cycle, just as the Celtic day began at night. For it was understood that in dark silence comes whisperings of new beginnings, the stirring of the seed below the ground. Whereas Beltane welcomes in the summer with joyous celebrations at dawn, the most magically potent time of this festival is November Eve, the night of October 31st, known today of course, as Halloween.

Samhain (Scots Gaelic: Samhuinn) literally meanssummer's end.” In Scotland and Ireland, Halloween is known as Oíche Shamhna, while in Wales it is Nos Calan Gaeaf, the eve of the winter's calend, or first. With the rise of Christianity, Samhain was changed to Hallowmas, or All Saints' Day, to commemorate the souls of the blessed dead who had been canonized that year, so the night before became popularly known as Halloween, All Hallows Eve, or Hollantide. November 2nd became All Souls Day, when prayers were to be offered to the souls of all who the departed and those who were waiting in Purgatory for entry into Heaven. Throughout the centuries, pagan and Christian beliefs intertwine in a gallimaufry of celebrations from Oct 31st through November 5th, all of which appear both to challenge the ascendancy of the dark and to revel in its mystery.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Entry for October 30, 2008

"Internet addiction" is about to make us a nation of derelicts. Men drooling over online pornography, women abandoning their husbands for chat-room lovers ...." I don't know about that, but an online existence can be socially connecting and isolating at the same time, which is pretty much a conundrum.

I find it interesting the number of people prowling the web for victims, whatever their game...sometimes just head games, other times more sinister. Actually interesting isn't the right word, more like revolting, angering. Why?

Because what started as a tool for the Pentagon*, has met the future. On the one side planet wide access to advanced medical care, instant communication of written and spoken words, ideas, images...and on the other hand, crime, psycho cyber junkies using advanced skills to steal information.

And then there is identity.

Who is who, and where are they on the globe? Is that woman I chatted with an hour ago really in Miami, or Paris, Moscow, or Hong Kong? Or was she a kid pretending out of her bedroom in Dayton?

Or maybe some sleazo in a rundown tenement on a old PC using dialup and a webcam to see some titties? Oh!

Its enough to make you want to sell you PC and go back to the old...nawww, we'll just have to deal with it.

(the Internet -the first two nodes of what would become the ARPANET were interconnected between UCLA and SRI International in Menlo Park, California, on October 29, 1969. )

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Entry for October 29, 2008

Sometimes I have to think awhile about what to write, then again sometimes it just falls in your lap....

By now EVERYONE on 360 knows Yahoo abandon ship, and we are for the most part on a ship bound for nowhere...no support, no problem resolution and no upgrades, only the promise that something wonderful is coming, when is unknown.

Now Yahoo has abandon another promising application, Yahoo Messenger for Vista. I noticed when i tried to start the app it was stuck at sign on, and so i tried to find some information, and found this (see graphic with this blog)

Yahoo! Messenger for Vista BETA

Help us develop our latest product designed exclusively for Vista

Thank you for your interest in Yahoo! Messenger for Vista.
This product is no longer available for download.

We have discontinued stand-alone releases of the Yahoo! Messenger for Vista application in order to focus on delivering one Windows experience that is optimized for all Windows users.

I think the telltale here is the word Beta, which so far is the death knell for Yahoo applications... and like the comments from 360 users wh felt betrayed, some of the comments from Vista Messenger users:

  • you guys never fail to amaze me, why couldnt you let us know a little in advance so we could download and save the vista messenger? BEFORE YOU DROPPED IT?
  • THANK YOU FOR TURNING YOUR BACK ON THE USER COMMUNITY.

    Now please excuse as I uninstall and go back to the Windows Live messenger Beta.

Well said, I think i too will go back to Windows Live messenger...

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Entry for October 28, 2008

OK, here it is, the gripe bag is open....

President Bush, elected to a second term on the grounds that we had nothing to fear ...oh wait, that was Roosevelt, and he said we had nothing to fear but fear itself...which for those too dense to get it meant America shouldn't fear the action they would need to take and become mired in what is today analysis paralysis.
In 1941 America was attacked, and out of our fear and anger, we went to war, and emerged the global power we are today. But politicians have used our fear to lead us down a path that was the wrong way. (My opinion anyway). So instead of whining about it, let just deal with it.
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
We have all heard it for the last oh 22 months or so.
Now within a week we will likely elect the first African American President, which in his case is not just some PC term since his father was a Kenyan student, and his mother an American. Or maybe we will elect the oldest man elected President. Both tickets have their pros and cons.
Neither will live up to the hype.
Should that turn out to be true, Obama will have a lack luster term and then recede into private life, or will be one of the most beloved leaders out country ever had...time will tell. Same can be said for McCain.
As I told some coworkers today (that listen to me because I am older than they are ergo I might know something, Or because i am higher up in the organization than they are) America has survived bad Presidents, and we will again if we have to...although I sure wish some better people were out there running for office.
I didn't support Hillary, backed someone else, and feel the nomination was pretty much taken away from her by some weird dealings in the party, like the discounting of two states and then the "super-delegates"...that really smack of favoritism and undemocratic actions.
What I really hope happens is WHOEVER is elected tries to make this country like it ought to be, where being a democrat or republican is secondary to being a citizen of this country.

I rue the day the credo Duty Honor Country is replaced with Duty Honor Party...geez, that sounds like...Soviet communism?

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

October 21, 2008..a continuation of Oct 15 Blog

I was reviewing my page and realized I left a lot out of the blog where i said "I majored in Political Science when seeking my Masters degree at Univ California. My education included a stint as an intern with a state assemblyman..."

Ah yes, when you start to reflect, all the little neurons in your brain start to do what they do, and memories from 30 years ago sometimes pop to the consciousness, like little baby fart bubbles in the tub (what an image)...

Let me tell you about Assemblyman Lee...well, I'll just say Lee. He had a billowy head of blue white hair , his hair line starting about the middle of his head, and then his thick wiry mane flowed back to his collar. It looked like cotton candy. he wore those glasses that were plastic on top and metal on the bottom, a kind of 1950's look.

When we showed up to work at his office , the secretary introduced us, myself and another girl and a boy neither of us knew, from a junior college nearby. The first words out of his mouth after looking us up and down was

" Women in this office wear a skirt or dress, makeup, and nylons." Nothing was said to the boy, who was wearing tan cords and a sweater.

He looked at me and said "You're pretty tall...you can stay in the office." The other girl was told to work in campaign headquarters, "because nothing attracts votes like a pretty girl" She objected, saying her and I were both supposed to work in the campaign office, to learn more about how a campaign worked. I dont remember what he said, but after we left his office, the secretary said we could both go to the campaign office and work. And work we did, stapling campaign literature together after the boy, I think his name was Steven, ran them off on a mimeograph (for those that dont know what that is, think pre computer back in the olden days..A mimeograph machine is a mechanical duplicator that produces copies by pressing ink onto paper through openings cut in a stencil)

We wore these stupid straw hats with Vote for Lee on them, and would wonder around the shopping plaze handing out literature while smiling and saying "Vote for Lee" People usually took the literaure, and sometimes said something, either how great Lee was or what a giant a__hole he was.

What people didnt know is that he really was an effective legislator, and a very mean man. His aid, who years later became a judge, would routinely get yelled at, and have things throw at him by Lee. It was rumored Lee was also a womanizer, a term I was vaguely familiar with. Once at the local pizza place, he bought us some beer and food, and then proceeded to engage in conversation with each of us. When he got to my friend and I, he said the usual pleasantries, and sat down at our table . The conversation was pretty blah, and then out of no where he asked which one us wanted to < you know>, and took a drink from his beer. I remember that part because i can picture his Adam apple moving up and down as he gulped the beer, the little purplish and red veins in his cheek highlighted against his barely tan skin. My friend stepped on my toes under the table, and spoke us both, declining the invite.

He then moved on to another table. We left.

On the way home in my cold VW Karmen Ghia, the word EEEEEWWWW was spoken more times than any other expression, and by the time we got home we were laughing about it...that old fart though one (or both?) of these young women were so in awe of his status in government that we would let him <you know>? Thats when I gained my sense of politicians being full of <you know>

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Entry for October 18, 2008

Couple of recent things-
Honey got a Freedom Team Certificate of Appreciation, a letter from the Secretary of the Army and a lapel pin that has Veteran US Army on it. How and why this came we have no idea, so i looked online, and someone must have nominated him for it. Who we don't know. He had a tear in his eye, and a trembling voice when he read aloud the part about "...the United States Army and a grateful Nation thank you."


He looked at me and said he should have gotten this 35 years ago...better late than never.
Why it takes our country so long to do things like this I don't know, except that when honey was a soldier, it wasn't cool to be in the Army. It was OK to loathe soldiers... make them feel like their service was a mistake .

My cousin says he is getting promoted to Major in the Army. He is a 4 time now combat veteran, and is 46 years old. He says in Afghanistan, the helicopters he rides on like to have something from home, and one of them has this song lyrics on a piece of paper stuck inside the troop area:
Won't Back Down by Tom Petty

Well I wont back down, no I wont back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I wont back down

Gonna stand my ground, wont be turned around
And Ill keep this world from draggin me down
Gonna stand my ground and I wont back down

Hey baby, there aint no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I wont back down.

Well I know whats right, I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin me around
But Ill stand my ground and I wont back down

Hey baby there aint no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I wont back down
No, I wont back down

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Entry for October 15, 2008

Bah Humbug!

Thats what the election process means to me...smooth talking ads that either trash the opposition or promise things well out of reach, and OH, subject to change.

I majored in Political Science when seeking my Masters degree at Univ California. My education included a stint as an intern with a state assemblyman. I quickly realized that the reason there are so many lawyers run for office is (besides the need for power and money ) the huge ego boost that comes from running for office, and in the case of lawyers, the ability to talk in a way that seems credible on any topic, even when so full of it normally blue eyes turn brown...aka full of sh$t...

After seeing the dismal reality of elected office while working on several campaigns , the deals, the smoozing, I said phooey and went into work in the real world.

I wish "None of the above " was a choice offered on the ballot...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Entry for October 11, 2008

Happy Birthday...your account with XYZ Retirement Fund means a lot to us.

OK, so explain what the heck this means when compared to my portfolio, as it is...

GENERAL MOTORS CORP (GM)
-82.65%
Hello!!!

This is one of the worst stocks I own...I have a IRA, I send in some money every month, and they take that money and buy specific dollar amounts of stock in each companyI say. Since the company I work for prohibits me from owning stock in tech companies, i sold all the stock I had in Cisco, Lucent, Dell, Gateway, Microsoft, ATT and dear Yahoo. Most of these are on NASDAQ, not the Dow Jones. Most of these ended this week slightly up. Most of my stock, in consumer goods and industrials, went down, some like GM way down. This story replayed itself in my 457 and 401K, which are other retirement accounts. In the last 10 days I have lost about a $1000 per day or more. I am small potatos...I have a friend that is 41, and she has seen her retirement fund shrink by half, well over a hundred thousand doallrs, money she has been saving since she was 21. She was almost crying when she said at least she has another 21 years before retirement to rebuild...

Whichever lame jerk gets in the white house, there better be some serious look into the politics behind this crap, regardless of party.
Only good I see is this positively points out the sheer folly in thinking investing Social Security money into stocks is a good idea, something I have ranted about ever since W said he wanted to do that. My work retirement has the option to add more money to a 401K, with the intent of getting more in retirement. Hahahaha

At least I pulled honey's money out of that IRA well ahead of this mess.

Oh, and for fun today I slammed the patio door shut on my fingers, which has made my middle finger sore...I am sure there is some sort of cosmic justice in that, given the number of times I have extended that finger towards my TV during the last week while exploring new avenues in creative language making while cursing the talking heads and their damn gleefullness at telling us our financial world is crumbling...