I am home sick today, and was checking out my page for any new stuff since yesterday morning.
As I peruse the pages of friends, I can't help but to notice most have a zillion more friends than I do, and hence a bunch of comments. And most of my friends seem to avoid contacting me, which prompts me to wonder if I really am too self centered? And is that a bad thing? I know that I can come across as kind of a smarty sometimes, maybe most of the time, but in my own defense, i am smart, at least that's what my coworkers tell me...So maybe then I just picked the wrong friends on Yahoo, basing friendship on a random set of values so minuscule that friendship is extended to near strangers?
And we each have our troubles to air, and then seek some reassurance or care from out online friends, sort of like imaginary friends only they aren't, because somewhere out there is a person who has to read what is written, think about it and then apply those thoughts to a keyboard and post to the internet.
My friends include a lot of different professions, with distinct the personality is what come thru the writing, and maybe my personality is just plain and unfulfilling, like white bread toast.
Who invites me to be their friend? Nobody? why? I invite people to be my friend and get nothing back, like the word is out, don't be friends with her, she really is a bitch...My friends Joe and Jon and PH all send me messages periodically, saying I am too harsh on myself, that people do read my blog, and I wonder what people think after they do so. Maybe I am too centered on feedback, especially from those who want to be unknown...I know that when i write really technical blogs, people get bored,because who really cares...
No wonder i like the TV shows like Monk and Frasier, I relate to the quirky main characters...
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