September 19, 2007 why I Hate Closeups

I wrote a whole long blog about this and then it disappeared...weird.

I am pretty insecure about my job, approaching retirement, the future in general. I think thats why all of a sudden i have become so concerned about how I look. Not just the weight thing, which I have been battling especially hard since I was diagnosed as a type II diabetic about 10 years ago. I count carbs, measure proteins, and take medication, at first half a horse pill and then 1 a day, then two, now 3; my recently retired doctor wanted me to start taking something else, which i said no to, lets try 3x daily of my old med, which she thought I already was doing- not a ringing endorsement for HMO, let alone nationalized medicine.

So I was at this staff meeting today, and looking around, I said here are 50 average people, and I don't look any worse than any of them. I went to another meeting( my life is meetings) and in that meeting i think i can say I look better than one, maybe better than another, although today she was actually wearing makeup and looked OK, and at least as good as the other woman in the room. So out of 4 women in the room, i looked OK!!!!

OK, so now the dog is bugging me for food- its dinner time (Fade to theme music by Eric Burton and the Animals)Ok, so leave a comment on here if you want to, but be nice- no "hey lady, there's a whale on your blog" or "Hey, Shamu"- be nice or don't say anything- remember

Oh, and here is another good tune from 40 years ago When I was Young