Entry for December 17, 2007

Its late on a cool almost winter night as I write this...

• I have been reflecting on the nature of this blog thing, and how people are reading it and not commenting, or not reading? I try to do a couple of things, which is mostly rant and whimper about stuff that is on my mind, or I try to be useful, in writing things that might help someone understand something. My focus is always though really revolving around my own need for recognition. Realizing one is not the center of the universe can be a sobering thought, especially when you tend to have ego problems, and tend to prop yourself up by throwing around your own sense of reality, morality, or whatever. I know thats what I do, and if that is annoying and offensive, you have a right to tell me. I also reserve the right to either acknowledge or not those comments.
• I sometimes think I have it rough, but thats not true, especially if contrast again what others are going through, there is almost always someone worse off, financially, emotionally, health wise, whatever.
• Is that now totally confusing? I hope not.

Daily Rant

A couple of things today made my whole day memorable, and not in a good way. First, on my way to work, i was as usual thinking about something while driving; not exactly daydreaming, but I did mess up and cut in front of a really angry looking guy in a pickup, so i stopped, and waved for him to go through the intersection; his reaction was a bit much, taking the time to roll down his window and say to " What the hell you doing you G## D##n F$$King B*(&*h.? Stupid F543king C8nt" and he proceeded to burn rubber and go on his merry way.

I have not be exposed to a sereis of run on expletives like that in years, really. All i could think to do was smile and wave a single finger salute at him as he left...not very nice on either count..

Episode 2, Fun Day- I am in a meeting with a new executive, along with some other people. I am supposed to provide him a breifing on my project and how it interacts with the programs he administers. We are across a 8x32 foot conference table from each other in a large meeting room, a kind of room every meeting room should be- power shades, a projection system mounted in the ceiling, video conferencing, the works. Hey this is high tech stuff we're talking about, so we need a hi tech room. He asks me what the folder i have next to me is, and I explain its some charts that show blah blah blah, and he asks for them, and kind of half way stands to reach across the table, so i do likewise and hand him the report. Afterwards, in the elevator, my coworker Jean asks if I am going to file a complaint: "About what I ask" She proceeds to tell dunce me how he was checking me out,a nd when I stood and bent over, she swears he smiled as his eyes focused breifly down my blouse.

(This is classic me) I grabbed the neckline and pulled it out a bit, looking down, and then looked at her, "If looking at my black bra was a turn on for him, he really has big problems" I am not going to file a complaint, I don't think its warranted. Men do stuff like that; now if he said something weird, or slapped my butt, I would say something. But what bugged me is that she thought I didn't even catch him. I mean its almost a cliche, if you aren't wearing a turtleneck, someone is going to look . (Maybe this explains why most of my wardrobe is mock turtleneck sweaters?)

If you read this, please have a great day...and if you didn't read this, well thats your problem