Canice goes on a rant
Seems like the more you want to know people, and share of yourself, the more likely they want to take something and give only back some heartache. Kind of like sharing the wealth of their own pain and misery, after draining away what good I can spend...
Several "friends" I have made here on Yahoo are off into their own world, as the old gang as it were dissolves, in large part because of the instability and general unreliability of this service (360).
I have tried to maintain connections to several; lately sending chat messages back and forth to one in particular, and it seems to have gone amiss...so on the one hand I want to say you know what, I dont need this, and quit the whole thing- the blogs, the chat, the emails, posting of art and music and pictures, the whole thing. I could just go back to the way I was before, a casual visitor who maybe leaves a comment here and there, but is unconnected to anyone online. That would be sad, but really, who would care...a couple of people?
I am not depressed or upset about it, I have been thinking about this on and off for awhile...just cut the ties, and move on, and not spend anymore energy trying to communicate with those that, for whatever reason, cant or wont do the same+One recently told me you need to have more patience...what? You are asking me to be patient?
That kind of thing gets to me, because I try to be upbeat and share all the things i think might be interesting and well, things friends talk about...and in return I get ignored, or a reply filters in several weeks later, with reasons like," i have been busy", or "I gotta work" or "I am too tired, write me later?" Again, ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! I work a high profile high pressure job, starting work about 7 AM and usually not getting home until 12 hours later, have to take care of a family, and still find time to write emails and send instant messages to people at night.
Thats why I cant figure out what is the reason people dont respond...and then my honey says "maybe they dont really like you, they just say they do?" Might have a point there.
Anyway, thanks for the good times we used to share, see ya...maybe?
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