The picture today i call sunrise in the fog, which hey is waht it is...but its also a metaphor for how i feel today.
Some of you may have read enough of my blog here to know i have issues, duh! 
I think I should, if for no other reason than maybe me carping about my issues would inspire someone to do something for themselves. I say that because over the Thanksgiving holiday my daughter and her husband visited, going home Saturday. We went to do somethings Saturday morning, venturing out to the local farmers market, swap meet/auction, where I managed to get Egyptian made rug for $45...I often wonder if these are stolen or what?? The quality is OK, but whatever, this is off topic.
So at lunch after shopping, I asked my SIL (son-in-law) why at dinner the other night he says "I am really proud of the way you are taking care of yourself". (A remark that cause me and my daughter to exchange shrugs).
He explained to me that his best man at their wedding (who probably is in his mid 30's) found out he has an enlarged heart and some other medical conditions, and has steadfastly refused to follow the treatments the doctors have told him...take his medications and avoid things like fatty foods, and alcohol. SIL says he knows i used to love wine and some beers, and he hadn't seen me drink anything all weekend, and so my daughter had told him that since I was put on some different medications for my diabetes, I just decided to stop drinking any alcohol at all, with rare exceptions.
here's the thing.
I am really selfish- I have worked hard to get to where i am so that honey and i can retire someday and not have to worry about things like, OH, affording to eat, pay our own way, little things like that. And I would like to someday be able to just go to the beach whenever i want, not just on vacation or weekends. So i do what the doctors say so i can do those things.
I told SIL to tell his friend he is an idiot, and needs some mental help. I was really depressed when i was diagnosed with Type II diabetes, but I thought about what the alternatives were to not taking my meds, and decided i was selfish, and wanted to be around awhile. For me, my family and our friends.
I have managed my diabetes for the last 12 years, so i guess I am doing something OK. My latest thing to deal with has been thyroid problems, leading to the decision with my specialist doctor to take a dose of radioactive Iodine today to shrink the thyroid.
I guess for the next week I will be somewhat dangerous to others, as I wander around throwing out Beta rays. Worse part will be sleeping alone for a week, until the level of radiation in me is no longer a danger to others. So when i got home for the doctor, I decided to see why my of late normally tight jeans felt OK, it not actually a little loose. I still weigh more than I want, but I am darn close to wearing a smaller size. I don't usually talk too much about this, but having come down 2 sizes already in the last 3 years only to go back up a size was devastating to my ego...and now i am going down again. Loss of weight does a couple of things ( beside make me feel happy I mean)...it lowers my blood pressure, and it helps me control my diabetes. Yay!
And another thing....
One thing that puzzled me was I should be losing weight since my thyroid is overactive, yet instead I gained weight...until a co-worker mentioned that I should look at the amount i was eating, which made me realize i was loading up on food. The doctor said that its not uncommon, since your appetite also gets put in overdrive, to offset the high metabolism. For the last couple of weeks I have tried to eat about what I should volume wise, and sorta stay on track with carb control, which is damn hard when there are all these pies and sweets being served up for the holidays.
I guess I should stop for now, else i really start to sound like my mother, who calls every week to tell me about her medical issues
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