Frustration Blog

Sometimes i write on here just to vent, and don't really expect comments, other times I write trying to put across a point to start people thinking about things from a different perspective.

I suspect than frequently I fail at both. I get comments, often adverse to my opinion, which at times only infuriates me; some comments are so offensive to me, so off topic that I delete them, I mean it is MY blog, right?

I wonder how well people know me from any exposure we have online...and surmise that a lot of the time people misread me. I have lost "friends" online, and more than once chalked it up to just being a situation that isn't right or wrong, but a poor fit.

While I can be profane, I have worked really hard not to be, in real life and online. There was a time when my language was frequently peppered with expletives, much to the chagrin of those close to me.

Odd ramblings-

 i can ( and frequently am) brutally honest, which at work has at times earned me the various titles of  know it all , and more frequently the word used to define a female dog...mostly from guys who I suppose aren't used to women like me. Let's be clear here. I am the first born child of three, daughter of a Korean war USMC officer who in civilian life was a  sheriff. My mom always told me I could do anything, be anything career wise, and dad was supportive, although he used to say stuff about me when he was upset with my choices, his favorite being to say something along the lines of "Go ahead, waste your life, get knocked up and be a nobody"...which usually made me angry, because it didn't hurt me as much as my mom. But I digress.......

So when i write things, it is colored by the life experiences i have had, from how I was raised, thru college, early work life and then the latest phase, where i am actually in a higher position with my company that I expected I would ever get to. Which comes with pluses and minuses.

Pluses, mostly financial, have steadily dwindled over the last two years. I never got bonuses, but did get salary increases. The good news is I reached the top of my salary scale this year; the bad is due to salary reductions, its about what I was making in 2007. Thankfully my car is paid for, but when gas hits $4 a gallon, I expect I will have to try to find a decent go cart to use to get to work, or at least to the nearest train station about 8 miles from my house.

And then there is planning for retirement, and how my retirement accounts have shrunk in the financial melt down..

What this has tended to do is heighten my sense insecurity about my financial future. I earned my money, so why do i want to give it to the government, who is spending it like drunken sailor in port after six months at sea...? I know about the national debt, I realize we need to collectively retire that debt. How we do that is the debate...one side wants to raise taxes, while others want to cut spending. Reality is both will probably happen...which sucks.

How about promoting work in America, making stuff....goodness knows we used to make stuff here. Forget that double talk about low wages elsewhere, like Mexico or China.

Make stuff here, and pay people a decent wage...not inflated wages, but decent. i saw on the news a wooden dowel company reopened, after some former employees bought the place. Hired back some workers at a lower wage than before, but they took it because it beats being unemployed...why can't isn't there more of that?